One of my ex-boyfriends, Marc, I consider to be the first Adult I have ever dated. We were together for 4 months about 3 years ago. He was so generous and good to me. Even though we broke up, we have stayed in touch....texting or talking every now and then, and even a few "booty calls" :)
I was thinking about him today and sent him a text just to say hi and ask how he was. He replied that all was well and that he'd just returned from a 2 week trip to Florida and the Caribbean. My problem is, I keep wondering if there is a new woman in his life? I care about him and still think of him as mine, even though we aren't compatible.
Why do I care so much about him having a girlfriend??? I don't want him with another woman! This confuses me.
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Friday, April 26, 2013
40 Year Search
A few weeks ago, I ended a 40 year search. Basically the search was for my biological father. I found out that he passed away in 2008. That left me with the 2 brothers that I've also known about for the past 40 or more years.
It was a difficult search. All I knew about my birth father was the 1st name of his second wife. "Pam". After a blinding search of names on #FamilySearch.com, I finally found her! Her last name was Martin. I then did a search of her for anything I could ..... find. I found her obituary and with it, the name of the 2 brothers that I have always dreamed and thought of!!!! Douglas & Martin. Their names and middle names comfirmed that these were indeed my brothers! I knew from family research that their names were from the line of people my birth father identified with. There was the reference to their mother's name and my birth father's step father's name. Confused? I'm not...I get it. My 2 brothers were born to a woman named Pamela Martin. My birth father's step father was named, Ervin. The eldest of my 1/2 brother was named, Douglas Ervin, the younger 1/2 brother was named, Martin Sterling. Can you see the connection??? I certainly did. When I emailed, Doug about this, he confirmed we are all siblings! I can't begin to explain the elation I felt!
Although my birth father has long passed away, they seem to have the same feelings I have towards him...Contempt! Even tho he was in & out of their lives, he wasn't much of a father to them either. At least they knew him. I did not. Is it bad for me to rejoice in knowing that they did not hold him in high regard? I know it was just bitterness on my part, but I am glad to know they felt almost the same way I did.
In the long run, I had a much better father....Fred Keith. Although I never called him dad to his face, I do refer to him as my father! To my daughter, Melissa...He is the only grandfather she has known!! We call him, Granpa. Granpa his been both father to me and father/grandfather to Melissa. He's always been there for us and has never let us down!!!
It was a difficult search. All I knew about my birth father was the 1st name of his second wife. "Pam". After a blinding search of names on #FamilySearch.com, I finally found her! Her last name was Martin. I then did a search of her for anything I could ..... find. I found her obituary and with it, the name of the 2 brothers that I have always dreamed and thought of!!!! Douglas & Martin. Their names and middle names comfirmed that these were indeed my brothers! I knew from family research that their names were from the line of people my birth father identified with. There was the reference to their mother's name and my birth father's step father's name. Confused? I'm not...I get it. My 2 brothers were born to a woman named Pamela Martin. My birth father's step father was named, Ervin. The eldest of my 1/2 brother was named, Douglas Ervin, the younger 1/2 brother was named, Martin Sterling. Can you see the connection??? I certainly did. When I emailed, Doug about this, he confirmed we are all siblings! I can't begin to explain the elation I felt!
Although my birth father has long passed away, they seem to have the same feelings I have towards him...Contempt! Even tho he was in & out of their lives, he wasn't much of a father to them either. At least they knew him. I did not. Is it bad for me to rejoice in knowing that they did not hold him in high regard? I know it was just bitterness on my part, but I am glad to know they felt almost the same way I did.
In the long run, I had a much better father....Fred Keith. Although I never called him dad to his face, I do refer to him as my father! To my daughter, Melissa...He is the only grandfather she has known!! We call him, Granpa. Granpa his been both father to me and father/grandfather to Melissa. He's always been there for us and has never let us down!!!
Monday, April 1, 2013
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
I like this so much...
This applies to some of the issues I've faced over the past couple of weeks....
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Cyber Bullying - 03/24/2013
Recently, I have been the victim of a cyber-bully.
All of a sudden, this person starting going off on me on Twitter in my DM's (Direct Messages). I had no idea of what prompted this and stated so to said bully. I thought we had straightened everything out, but I was wrong. Two days later, this same person chose to attack me again.
After the 2nd attack, I chose to un-follow and block this person. I have tried take the High Road in this and have chose not to defend myself. Why should I? I did nothing wrong and have never mentioned this person to anyone on either the Twitter TL (Time Line) or in DM's.
Apparently, this person is going around DM-ing many in the group I hang in and is spreading their malicious gossip and lies. And now, many are not speaking to me. I have no idea what this person was accusing me of, or of what they are saying to others in the group. My only defense to this is that, have I DM'd ANY OF YOU to try and explain? The answer to that is, No, I have not. Because I again, I have no idea what this person is talking about!!! I have never said anything about this person for the simple reason, I just don't know them.
If you are choosing to accept what this person says, you are the one being lied to. If you have any questions about it, I would request you ask me as well. You are only hearing one side of this. And again, I repeat, I don't know what the heck this person is talking about! If you'd like to see proof of their cyber-bullying against me, I will gladly share it. You have only to ask.
All of a sudden, this person starting going off on me on Twitter in my DM's (Direct Messages). I had no idea of what prompted this and stated so to said bully. I thought we had straightened everything out, but I was wrong. Two days later, this same person chose to attack me again.
After the 2nd attack, I chose to un-follow and block this person. I have tried take the High Road in this and have chose not to defend myself. Why should I? I did nothing wrong and have never mentioned this person to anyone on either the Twitter TL (Time Line) or in DM's.
Apparently, this person is going around DM-ing many in the group I hang in and is spreading their malicious gossip and lies. And now, many are not speaking to me. I have no idea what this person was accusing me of, or of what they are saying to others in the group. My only defense to this is that, have I DM'd ANY OF YOU to try and explain? The answer to that is, No, I have not. Because I again, I have no idea what this person is talking about!!! I have never said anything about this person for the simple reason, I just don't know them.
If you are choosing to accept what this person says, you are the one being lied to. If you have any questions about it, I would request you ask me as well. You are only hearing one side of this. And again, I repeat, I don't know what the heck this person is talking about! If you'd like to see proof of their cyber-bullying against me, I will gladly share it. You have only to ask.
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
3rd Baby?
02/05/13
I had several dreams last night/this morning. One of the most vivid dreams was that Melissa & Mike have 1 more child waiting for them in the Spirit World. It's another boy. I told Melissa this info during the dream and she said she felt the same way. This afternoon when I told her about the dream, as said, No! I found it interesting that her "No" wasn't very forceful. Hmmm....
I had several dreams last night/this morning. One of the most vivid dreams was that Melissa & Mike have 1 more child waiting for them in the Spirit World. It's another boy. I told Melissa this info during the dream and she said she felt the same way. This afternoon when I told her about the dream, as said, No! I found it interesting that her "No" wasn't very forceful. Hmmm....
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