WoW!

I never thought I'd say this, but...I like a girl! I fantasize about being with her, hugging her, kissing her, tasting her core...It's frightening, but in a curious way. It doesn't bother me thinking of being with her ... it goes against all I've been taught. There's nobody to discuss this with except her. XoXo If I went to the Bishop with this issue, he would say that its okay, as long as I honored the vow of abstinance. I don't want to honor it !

My Kitty Cats

1st picture: Isabelle, Sebastian and Savannah
2nd picture: Savannah
3rd picture: Savannah & Isabelle

The Lost Princess

Go ahead and laugh...

I am a lost princess right now.  I've just moved here and I'm feeling overwhelmed!  When I have moments of clarity, I think, "Snap out of it! You can do it!!" and then I'm right back to feeling lost.

I signed up for a job search web-site today but freaked out when they asked me for my address and phone number!  Why do they need my address and phone number if they have my e-mail address?!?

My thoughts are going in a million directions at once.  Sometimes I feel as though I may have suffered a small set-back I often think about calling my shrink.  But now I'm not working and have my house money that I need to use to purchase my condo when I look/find one and I don't want to spend anymore.  I feel as though I'm sinking again sometimes.  Help!

   

Utah

Well...I'm finally here in Utah. I left last Sunday morning, May 27, 2012. It started out stressful as the drive in California was a bit on the bumpy side. California roads suck! The need to be replaced but the damn state is so broke, they can barely even repair the roads!!! Once I crossed state-line, it was a smooth drive. Still stressful because I was also transporting 3 cats & a dog! I made it thru Nevada, thru Arizona and finally entered, Utah. It was a long slow drive. Since I was hauling a trailer, I wasn't supposed to go more than 55 mph. I tried going 60, but wasn't comfortable with that so stayed with the suggested 55. After a 13 hour drive, with very few stops I arrived at my destination! WoooHooo!

I'm finally here and quite frankly at a loss for what to do! I need to make a resume and start job searching. Am I to old? Will I find something soon?wish me luck! (please) XoXo

Escrow Closed 5/25/2012

Well...Escrow closed on my house yesterday at 5.10 pm.  It's officially Official...I'm homeless for the time being.

This morning 8 elders from church came over and split up into different rooms and moved all of my furniture out of the house and into the garage for Deseret Industries to pick up on Tuesday.  I'm donating most of it all to the church.  I feel good about it too. :)  

I just need to pick up my trailer and load it and I'll be ready to hit the road and begin a new life!  I'll be leaving for Utah tomorrow morning at 3am.

Improving Myself

I am tyring to improve myself. I've cut back on drinking and smoking. I hope to cut it back more so I just keep trying day after day. One day at a time, right?

Also, in trying to become a better person, I can't help but notice all the negativity that that goes on here by others who try to bring you down to their level and by posting mean comments.  Someone who does things like that is what I'll call a Minion of Satan.  You know who you are and you cannot suceed.  I just won't allow you to have the power to insult me.  Your negative comments only make me feel sorry for you.  Whatever it is that you hope to accomplish by your negativity & nastiness isn't working.   

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Music & The Spoken Word

I can't wait to go to Temple Square & watch the chior rehearsal.
Anonymous , I'll pray for you while there.. Pray for The Lord to forgive you & give you courage :)